Ok, can anyone please kill me right now? or maybe I can jump off from the window right now.
Lemme tell you the motif of my commit suicide / homicide plan.

1. My stomach is totally upset since few days ago. And it doesn't get any better today after I swallowed down more than 10 pills. I have to press against my tummy constantly throughout the whole day.

2. My headache is getting worse and I don't want to have another pill, which is Panadol in my tummy anymore. Jeesh.

3. Today is Moon Cake Festival and every family should have this reunion thingy. But I am fucking home alone right now. Because my body is too weak to let me walk around so much, not even stand for a long time. And I have no appetite at all.

4. But I still, have to ransack something out to eat for my dinner. I searched up and down left and right of the whole kitchen and found nothing. I have blueberry cheese tarts in the fridge. Yummylicious. But I don't think I can eat it because of my stupid stomach. I am so not going to eat plain bread AGAIN for my dinner.

5. I have fucking loads of homework to do since I missed Friday classes. And I don't know why our addmaths teacher just keep giving us loads and loads and loads of homework almost everyday. Hello, I ain't a human-like robot okay?

6. I have to go school on next Tuesday which is actually a PMR holiday for everyone except for those who sit for PMR. Like, I go there just to act like I am a bahasa malaysia lover? And actually speak Malay throughout the 2 periods of Malay classes? Or put up the smiley happy face just to show the examiner that I larveeee Malay so freaking much?
Thats obscenely fake.
I don't love that language at all. I can't even speak a complete Malay sentence without cracking people up.

And I don't get people these days.
Ok see, I've been pretty sick in the past few days.
And I always get this questions over and over and over again from my friends, and teachers, too.

Why are you still smiling and laughing if you are sick?

Hello? It isn't an illegal act to smile and laugh when you are sick.
Ok, maybe you don't know anything about law because you are too dumb. Forgiven.

But do I really have to put up a sad face like normal people usually do when they are sick?
For what? Just to prove to you that I am actually fucking sick here?
Or just for vision effect to please you?

It is absolutely none of your freaking business that I smile I laugh eventhough I am sick.
I think it does make me feel so much more better if I remain cheerful and joyful when I am sick.
I don't think it helps if you are all emo, depressed and sorrowful.
Okayyy, maybe you are a sad little attention seeker who want people's sympathy.
Attention seekers annoy the hell outta me, jsyk.
'Em are just sad. Feel sad for them ):

I swear, if anyone asks me this question again, I am so going to rip you off alive.
I get so pissed everytime people ask this question.
Are you really that dumb? Or your brain is eaten by wild animals?
Jeesh, I really don't get what people are thinking in their lil tiny itsy bitsy minds.
This kind of people should stfu and gtfu.

Get over the fact that I am LIKE that.

I am sorry. Stupid sickness.
I am just, having a mood swing :B
Hello people. -waves frantically- I am still lovely, thanks.

Love, Mariky.