Found this in my "Photography" folder and thought, "Hey, this picture is the best answer to all my confusions and questions right now."

I swear my parents have been acting a tad bit weird lately. 

My dad keeps asking me if I am having exams or not and my mum just being pretty cheerful whenever she is around me. I went running today just to de-stress (all thanks to my piano class, really) and she was like, "Good, you finally know how to release your tension.". Do I look tensed all the time?!

Anyway, I bbm-ed Aina today during class to ask about IELTS stuff and chatted with her for a while. The whole conversation really got me thinking a lot. I can't share my thoughts on here because - despite how pathetic it sounds - I care what you think.

But again, people don't give two hoots of my feelings. My younger sister just read my previous post (yes, one of her daily routines on the ipad) and she did not even feel anything about it. Perhaps it's her age, or people just really, don't give a fuck.

This is why I never tell anyone my real dream. 

I actually told Aina about it today and she is probably the only person who doesn't think that I am over-ambitious or shit like that. Also the only one who has given me some intelligent responses.

I could tell my dad, but he probably would just ask me to focus on current studies. The biggest possible outcome would be an argument between us. I would be throwing my temper at him again ( I know that's a terrible thing to do).

I just want a "Yes" from him, so that I have something to look forward to.

Right now, I am just going to study my ass off and try to be really optimistic (like how I used to be).