Hello October.

Surprising how time passes so fast and swiftly. This year has been horrendous, enough said.

You know how people annoy you to an extent where you don't even bother to communicate with them?

Yeah, exactly, cannot wait to leave.

This is probably the first time I get annoyed so much by things, people, surroundings.....just everything. I can't even explain why there is so much of hate inside me. I feel sickened by it, to be honest. I want the amiability back but I am not even making any effort. I just don't want to. That place is just not for me. Don't take me wrong. I love some of the people there. I've made some really lovely friends.

I honestly cannot wait for AS to be over. I cannot wait to suffer for the first six months of 2012 and get the hell out of there and hopefully (fingers crossed tightly) go somewhere new and nice.

I also hope no one finds out my blog. I have no one to tell my feelings to. I actually miss the old days (not so old, just few months back) where I had someone to say, "You have me." to me. Now, I only have my blog.

I need to and cannot wait to start fresh.